Today, I didn't want to get up. But I did. I forced myself out the door, to the park, to the grocery store, to spend almost the entire afternoon outside in the Texas wind, taking pictures of my little pixie. I hated a lot of today. I had more bad moments where I just wished to be crushed under a huge rock, while looking at my beautiful daughter thinking ill never have another one of her... ever. Painful thoughts, those are.
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But all the things I forced myself to do today, in the end, it all added up to a pretty good night. I was happy I got out- to the park, to the store and took pictures. It made me want to go out again tomorrow... Instead of wanting to be crushed by a huge rock.
Even better, tomorrow we rid ourselves of our house guest. Yep- we've had some super annoying guy living in my craft room all month... So Ive mentioned. I for one am looking forward to hanging out in my underwear tomorrow... IN THE LIVING ROOM! And If I feel like crying in there, I'm going to! I wont even have to hide it! And if I feel like burying myself in buttons and fabric tomorrow in my craft room and NOT cleaning it up, I WILL! And I wont have to count my cups anymore to figure out how many hes got stashed up in MY CRAFT ROOM!! My Tupperware wont be getting lost forever at Brooke Army hospital anymore either. My dishes will all safely make it into the dishwasher and I wont have to worry about him hand washing things. (Wouldn't it just be easier on him to put it in the dishwasher anyway??? Hand washing is just GROSS.) Ill also never have to worry about yellow mustard stains all over my fabulous pink kitchen rug either. And SOOOOOO much more, but ill be NICE now... yes I am being nice. Its just hard living with someone else, especially when that someone else thinks they are so much smarter than everything alive... in the universe.
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BUT- EVEN BETTER THAN THAT, isn't Lexi just so CUTE? I swear, I smother her in kisses everyday of her life. I kiss her cheeks like 100 times a day, because I just cant help myself and I kiss her little toes too! SOOO often, that she will come lay down next to me and stick her feet in my face all ready for me to kiss them. Brian hates this, he hates feet. So do I, but Lexi's tiny toes- they're cute enough to kiss still (I think). Today I attacked her with RED kisses. We played out front and I'm pretty sure the passing people thought she had some kind of disease on her face, I got some funny looks! I'm not one to care though. I'm always up to strange things over here...
And I DO love her SO very much.
10 XOXOXO:
House FREEDOM!!! That guy was a weirdo! Have fun lounging and crafting!!!
Sounds like your house guest was a psycho. I would have kicked him out long before he ever left. Good for you for sticking through it and dealing with his retardedness. And yes Lexi is loved and SUPER cute and those red kisses all over are SO funny!
I'm glad you have your own house back to yourselves again!! He sounds like such a PAIN!
Lexi looks SO dang cute with all of your kisses. The text in the pictures are super cute too. :)
I do the same with baby D- i kiss his cheeks ALL DAY LONG! I think i do it even more now that Dr. Drew is gone!
your strength to press on gives me strength to do so ... not fun and not easy, but so necessary.
I've been thinking about you. Thought I'd stop by and say hello. I'm sorry things are so rough, but BOY oh Boy is Lexi adorable! I'd be kissing her cheeks all day long, too.
LOVE love LOVE the pics!!! And SO glad your pesky house guest is finally GONE!! I don't know how you put up with him for so long! I don't even think I could have an extended family member stay for that long (I'm a brat- I know)!
Glad Mr. C is gone. Hope he doesnt read your blog!! HA!!!! I know you'll have another baby. Hang in there...
I was thinking, esp. today...funny how the grass is always greener!! I feel like I'd trade you places- I'll your one child and you can have my 3. After a week you'd be calling, ' um, you can come get them now!!' But I'm really feeling like- one kid sounds so nice. I know it's just my day today because I dont know which one I'd keep and which 2 I'd send back.
I need to count my blessings!
OH my gosh. SWEET FREEDOM!!! HOORAY for the departure of the house guest! I can't even believe that. Yuck it's like raising a teenage boy except you have less freedom to be like, "Hey, grow up." You're way too nice... I would've just said, "Um, excuse me, you need to leave."
Oh, honey. I just wanna cover YOU in kisses! Sorry you had another rough day, but it's awesome to hear you were able to get out and let the love of the wind and sun swirl around you a bit. That's good medicine. Those photos of Lexi are adorable. You come up with the cutest ideas. And yay! Your live-in guest is gone! That's good. It's hard having someone suddenly live with you, even when they're wonderful. Hang in, Lis!
Those pictures are adorable!
I haven't been blogging for a few weeks-I hadn't seen all of your recent posts. I'm so sorry-I wish I knew what to say or how to help! You're in my prayers!
I don't know if you're feeling up to it, but if you are, do you want to do a shoot with Nicholas sometime this week?
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