Is it REALLY SUNDAY?
I think I missed a day somewhere along the way this week...
Brian officially took his very last medical school test on Friday! We are now set to cruise through the rest of the year- until July! Its very exciting. Were just waiting for that PRETTY diploma now! We spent most of Saturday in the city. We went to the Alamo and went inside for the first time too! (and it wasn't that cool...) We walked around in the River Center and found the Disney store where Lexi scored a new set of Little Einstein pals. They were on clearance for $6 bucks and we just couldn't say NO to THAT! (or her!) She played with them for 7 hours today. Id say that was WELL worth the money we paid!!!!!
We have also been working in the garden again- Me and my Lexi Poo. This time we planted MOSTLY flowers- Ranunculus, Dahlia, and something else that I cant remember the name of, about 55 bulbs total. We also planted 10 strawberry bushes. It will be good to have things growing again. It takes my mind off of everything else going on PLUS I really like digging holes and watering and sitting in the sun and seeing little sprouts and watching them grow...
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We had big plans for our Saturday. Brian thought it would be super fun to pull all the weeds in our front yard AFTER the city trip. All the grass in this town DIED in the cold, so the ONLY thing thats green in San Antonio are the EVER GREENS and WEEDS. When you look at the pictures below and see all the green- its all WEEDS!!! Our neighbors don't take care of their yards, which makes extra work for us. I SWEAR, we had like 1,000 weeds on the SMALLER part of our front yard. I kid you not when I say they filled 1/3 of the black trash can. The bigger part of our yard wasn't as bad. I got through half of it... and then I just felt like watching. (and Brian was fine with that.)

ENEMY No. 1!
YOU are the reason my back hurts right now!
And you also RUINED my dinner.
There is just something SO GROSS about eating salad for dinner after you've been pulling weeds all afternoon...
SEE ALL THE GREEN??? Told ya!
Lexi kinda looks like shes helping doesn't she?? Of course she wasn't! She was really playing with her toys!
This next picture really has NO relevance, I just really like it.
This week has definitely been dark and cloudy for me. I guess thats why I like it.
Do you like the texture? I made it myself. Its my first attempt at something like that.

I have a really had time expressing myself... Sometimes, you just cant write everything that you're really thinking... or feeling. Sometimes, I can just accept whats happening and other times I feel like I have to spend all of my energy trying to deny it from happening... which isn't possible. Yesterday was like that. I just couldn't let go of it. I wanted to be angry and sad and frustrated and so many other things. You have no idea what it can be like to feel like this- dead... empty... nothing left to give... Sometimes its just more than I can handle.
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It seems though, when you have a bad day, you get a couple of good ones that follow. Days like today when you care more about how many weeds you're going to have to pull out of the ground than the other things floating in the back of your head. I think the key for me is keeping busy. Maybe ill make a point to do the dishes and laundry more! ooor...Maybe not. I can think of much of BETTER things to do with my time! HA! Did I tell you I got a dress form for my BIRTHDAY? I need to do something with that! (I named her SALLY) Yah... i definitely need to hang out with SALLY...